Almost 2020.

In two more weeks I’ll be in Berlin, celebrating the end of a decade and the end of so many different things. I’ll also celebrate the new decade, the growth and the re-birth that I’m creating in 2020. I very much feel that the 2020s will be my decade. If the 2010s was growing up, graduating high school and graduating from college and finally becoming an adult, I feel like this new decade will show me everything that I didn’t know in the 2010s. I’ve been to so many countries, cities and places in this decade that I can’t complain. I’ve done my share of crying, laughing and enjoying life too but as I start the new year, I’m looking for deeper connection, love, money and personal growth like never before. I know these things are coming and my career will become a big focus in my life. I also feel that love is closer to me than ever before. I can almost taste it. It feels like chocolate after months of not eating it or a great song you haven’t heard in a while. It’s exciting and mmm, so delicious. Love is truly beautiful and is inside of us but also in the shape of a relationship. I welcome this new relationship and our new goals in life.

Random: I had the most curious thing happen to me today, as I woke up from a dream of a lover that I haven’t talked to in some months, I noticed a very RANDOM text from a person with the same name and with the message “Twin Shadow!” and to make it even stranger they’re from the same city. It’s very strange indeed. Still not sure how to interpret it. The universe got JOKES! haha love it!

-miss x

 

 

 

 

Classy in Cancun…

An image apparently says more than words and my fellow 90s generation, are very much aware of that because we are obsessed with photographs of ourselves at all times…

Is it the loneliness in our technology filled rooms,that makes us create these pictures or just a simple existential thing?

To my defense, I did take these pictures while vacationing in Mexico because I wanted to show my tan to people…

-Miss X

The Nerd House.

So this is going to be my academical spring, where I study all type of crazy things to obtain my dream of going abroad and become what I was meant to do in life, because it’s not meant to be here in Sweden. As much as I love this place, this is not the country where I will fulfill my dreams and do what I desire to do. Besides studying musicology in another city, I have also applied to study certain courses in psychology, criminology and social studies, meaning I’ll be studying 180 % – no leisure time anymore for me. Except if I meet a nice guy who will invite me for a late date on a Friday night, we will see what happens with that ;)!    My brain needs to be stimulated by all these things, since I have nothing else to do and perhaps it will guide me towards what I really need and want in life. I’m also going to look for a job soon and I’m so excited about it. I’ve never wanted to do so many things in my life, like I want right now. I guess my horoscope was right in a way, because I read that it was going to be a year full of learning and working hard and that’s exactly what’s happening right now. Whoever said that you can’t be smart and pretty, mustn’t have known my friends and I, because we will kick your ass in any field and still look hot in our high heel shoes! It’s 2013 people, move along with stupid old stereotypes.  I’m also trying to start taking lessons in piano, guitar or singing – I haven’t quite decided yet and it has to be at the right time because I also need time to work out!

On a side note  my inspiration right now is Tyra Banks who had a talk show, model show and did some model shoots at the same time while also being a spokesperson for a brand, that’s how awesome women can be if we just set ourselves up to it. Nobody can stop us!

– Miss X

Kärleksmums = Love cake?

I have no idea how to translate the name “kärleksmums” into english, it means literally  “yummy love” but it sounds better by the name love cake haha.  It looks like a brownie but it’s not, because it’s so much yummier haha!  It worked perfectly yesterday, because it was a great day for me personally. Spain won the final against Italy, with 4-0 ; an amazing game that I was so happy about. They are now the first team in football history to be the European champions, world cup champions and European champions in 4 years.  This cake is supposed to make you fall in love if you eat it, perhaps next time I’ll make my future boyfriend eat this so he can fall extra harder ;)….

Watched parts of the BET awards last night, because D’angelo was gonna perform and he totally did his thing! I’m proud of him. Some performances were just pure shit and it was annoying how they kept focusing on Bey & Solange, I love the Knowles sisters but damn, give us a break ; there were so many other people there.  I didn’t see the Whitney Houston tribute, but I’ve heard many say it was pretty decent. That makes me happy but I’m kinda sad they didn’t do a proper Donna Summer tribute, Chanté Moore did well, but still. She’s the queen of disco after all. Very well what do I expect from shitty awards lol.

Listening to Chanté Moore – Free Sail on / Better Than Making Love …

Red Pumps.

Today I finally got my red Steve Madden pumps and a burden is off my chest. With these heels I shall move mountains to reach my goals, that’s the reason why I bought them in the first place. I’ve never owned a pair of red shoes, because of unknown reasons haha! I’ve had all other types of shoes and colors, but never red so it’s def something exciting about it (I even have pink and mint green shoes lol). I feel like I’m invincible this time around, like there’s nothing that can stop me. It’s crazy how a pair of shoes, can say that much about a person. I feel strong and powerful and the past is there for a reason, because it made me realize who I want to be and more importantly who I want to be with in the future. I’ve shed many tears for the past and rightfully so, because when you have loved someone, it will hurt and it will traumatize your life because you had built expectations and dreams with that person. Those dreams are now gone and my future looks brighter than ever, just the fact that I was willing to sacrifice who I am as a person and willing to change myself to be with someone who wasn’t even  willing to change anything is just crazy. I’ve awaken from a dangerous state of mind that I was never willing to really take, but had much harder time to let go off because of my friendship with that person. These shoes represent:  a willingness to strive for better and to achieve whatever goal I have.  I’m being here for my mother, whom I love so much and is going through some rough moments right now.  But enough with all the girly psychoanalysis and what shoes can tell about your personality and let me enjoy my new shoes :)!

 

Have a great day!

 

Listening to Mylo Xyloto Album – Coldplay 

/Miss X